#theme: anguish

[araekniarchive]

eve, after the fall (auguste rodin; bronze, 1883)

Mark Twain, The Diaries of Adam and Eve // Hozier, From Eden // Angela Carter, The Bloody Chamber // Frank Bidart, The War of Vaslav Nijinsky // Eagles, The Last Resort // Anne Sexton, Words for Dr. Y

[araekni]

[ID: A Venn diagram. The circle on the left reads 'grief', the circle on the left reads 'the ankle you twisted when you were thirteen'. The section where the two circles overlap is labelled 'i think the pain is gone and then i do something weird and it strikes again'. End ID.]

where's that picture that ruined my life

[tapeworrmart]

Have art block and been playing gta iv so. Niko.

[somegrumpynerd]

Dust's nightmare

Dust has nightmares about fighting and killing here and there, but the ones that really stick with him are the ones that are just... memories. Things he can never have again.

What he can have though, is a distraction when he wakes up to help him settle and make sure he's not alone with his thoughts for too long

[peachcat14]

:(

[araekni]

[ID: A patchwork quilt with red and white borders. In the centre are a selection of different coloured patches of fabric. Over the top of the multicolour patches, in more red fabric, read the words:

SLEPT 14 HOURS– STILL TIRED. DIZZY. WOKE UP WITH HEADACHE. SEVERE CHEST PAIN. HANDS ALWAYS HURT. MIGRAINE. SITTING IS PAINFUL. ER SAYS IT IS FINE.

End ID.]

symptom journal quilt by Nicole Jones Studio

[0m3n-0f-d3ath]

⭐️Art fight

Viv by matchew on Artfight ⭐️

[catmemer]

[spearxwind]

Help i cant stop listening to the PW soundtrack I'm obsessed

[poisonousquinzel]

sorry but if you actually think Cancel Culture ™ is a thing then you're kinda a dumb fuck. Cancel culture isn't real, holding people accountable for their actions is a thing, but this whole narrative around Canceling that's evolved over the past few years isn't real. It's never been an actual thing. Its just a fear mongering tactic to further vilify the groups who were being harmed in the first place and victimize the person who did something wrong.

Your fav being called out for playing an antisemitic video game that directly gives profits to a hugely influential TERF, who's said openly she sees getting profits / royalty cheques from her franchise as endorsements for her bigotry, is not "cancel culture". It's called the consequences for your actions.

You have every right to do and play whatever the fuck you want, but that goes both ways. If you go out of your way to build up and financially support these people who're openly advocating to take away trans people's rights, then you get to deal with people not trusting you because of it. You get to deal with trans and Jewish folks not feeling safe around you, not wanting to be around you or not wanting to talk to you. Because you have shown that you care more about nostalgia and temporary personal emotional gratification over the wellbeing and safety of those communities in the real world.

People have explained why supporting HL is wrong, people have explained why it's harmful, people have explained in detail the issues with this situation. You. Just. Don't. Care. You don't listen, or read, because in the end, you can't be bothered enough to put in the effort of having 1 moment of critical thinking.

It's not that folks don't have arguments or evidence, it's that it clearly does not matter to you. It's that the value of an antisemitic game full of one horrific thing after another is worth more to you than the real, living breathing people who are going to be, and have been, affected by this.

You come across as a bad person. Not because some person on Twitter determined you must be, but because your actions speak far louder. And they're screaming red flags.

I'm not going to argue with you over your own bad decisions and life choices. You've made your bed and are mad that people are telling you to lie in it.

[araekniarchive]

SELF-PORTRAIT AT 24

Ana Carrizo, What Was Missing

Louis de Bernieres, Captain Corelli’s Mandolin

Brenna Twohy, ‘ON SEEING PHOTOS OF HIS NEW GIRLFRIEND ON FACEBOOK’, from Swallowtail

Bruce Coville, Jennifer Murdley’s Toad

The Antlers, Bear

When Harry Met Sally (1989) dir. Rob Reiner

Thomas Harris, The Silence of the Lambs

Raven Leilani, Luster

Comment left on a pinterest post

Elle Emerson, Regarding the Röttgen Pietà

Susan Sontag, As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh

Dominique Christina, Stargazer

Lia Kimura, Unknown (2018)

John Steinbeck, East of Eden

Florence + The Machine, South London Forever

Wislawa Szymborska, Moment of Silence

Barbara Ras, ‘You Can’t Have It All’ from Bite Every Sorrow

[siliconforbrains]

I decided to do a full loop (companion side quests included) this time around and Siffrin's obvious desperation when Bonnie says he shouldn't have jumped in to protect them back when he lost his eye... Siffrin is never really going to recover from the end of act 3, are they?

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

𝔊𝔬𝔞𝔱𝔴𝔥𝔬𝔯𝔢 - ℭ𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔅𝔢𝔩𝔩𝔰 𝔬𝔣 𝔉𝔲𝔫𝔢𝔯𝔞𝔩 𝔄𝔫𝔤𝔲𝔦𝔰𝔥

[clowndensation]

quite literally one of my favorite things about louis in the books is that he projects all the anger he feels at god directly onto lestat.

like god is great and all powerful and all knowing, but god is also an indiscriminate killer; a killer who would have paul take his own life, even though he was devout and moral and good, while keeping louis on this earth (even if he's none of those things. even if he's the one who gave paul the proverbial push over the edge of that balcony). everything in the world is part of god's plan, but god is withholding, god won't share that plan with his children, even if they beg, even if they pray, and so louis is left alone, abandoned by god. and he can't hate god, because god is above reproach, but he has all this anger and this grief, and he has nowhere to put it.

and then he meets lestat. lestat who promises to transform him, to make him something new. god promises to care for your immortal soul, but lestat offers louis an immortal body. god can turn water into wine, but lestat can turn human into vampire. god forces louis to argue with his brother - an argument that kills him, and lestat forces louis to kill a man before he'll turn him into a vampire. humanity is made in god's image, but louis abandons humanity, and lestat remakes him in his own.

louis gives up god for the promise of rebirth, for the promise of new life filled with new meaning. but, of course, there's no such thing as leaving your old life behind, and ghosts don't stop haunting you just because you've died. and so louis gave up a god who was out of reach, who knew everything but would tell him nothing, and what he received in return was a god who he could finally speak with, but who had no answers to give him. and he can't accept it. so all the anger louis has at god is now anger he has at lestat, but at least now god is a man he can touch, who he can yell at, who he can resent without apology. lestat is a killer, lestat will see the brightest in humanity, the people most worthy of life, and snuff them out. lestat promises knowledge and answers, but cruelly withholds them. lestat is his creator, but he's a bad one, an uncaring one, a maker who refuses to take responsibility for what he's put on this earth.

and this resentment grows and grows and grows, until there's only one way louis can possibly handle this continuous failing of god. claudia knows it, and louis agrees. and so they kill god.

and nothing changes! nothing changes, nothing improves, and life is still just as miserable and achingly deprived of meaning, and it's not until louis finally talks about his fear out loud (that there is no god, that life only has as much meaning as we decide to give it, that even if god isn't real, good and evil are, and louis has made himself evil all on his own) that he fully accepts that he was punishing lestat for the crime of not measuring up to god - the exact crime louis punishes himself for. and so now louis is alive in a world bereft of both god and lestat. and he just has to cope with that.

[mechieonu]

just finished good omens s2. i'm in so much fucking pain and agony

[doublekanble]

ghost in your home was not supposed to end like that at all lol, wrestled with the idea of letting him have his cake and eat it too or shove it in his face a bit more and ended up with just letting him be